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Last fucking entry. This thing is filled to the brim with history that kills me at night. [06 Nov 2005|02:17am]
"And when you left that day
I thought you'd be back again
She's my baby girl
She'll come back for sure
But *faggot don't you know
That she's not yours to hold
And she can't hold you back
One more drink one more heart attack
And *faggot what'd you do
Cause now you're losing you
Why would you lose that girl
*hey I loved you
*hey I loved you"
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The attachment. [31 Oct 2005|11:34pm]
Yeah, you always look innocent don't you, in mirrors.
The way the marks on your face speak of your days.
Each long night you seemed to have forgotten about takes a toll on the beauty you so graciously disregard.
The cheap scent in the air has trapped you here.
Hotel bathrooms bring out your eyes, yeah.
You're so busy wondering where the ocean will take you.
As if the sand won't be your end.
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blues flag dead, the [31 Oct 2005|11:22pm]
"the car's on fire and there's no driver at the wheel
and the sewers are all muddied with a thousand lonely suicides
and a dark wind blows
the government is corrupt
and we're on so many drugs
with the radio on and the curtains drawn

we're trapped in the belly of this horrible machine
and the machine is bleeding to death

the sun has fallen down
and the billboards are all leering
and the flags are all dead at the top of their poles"
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Inspired by Meksika. [30 Oct 2005|12:59am]
They met him at the cemetery.
All his family and friends.
They shot him there.
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Hey you, with the little green notebook! [27 Oct 2005|10:53pm]
So I am back to writing and crumpling up scraps of wordpad documents. Heh.




Suddenly the girls face became snow white with a blank stare.
A thousand pores opened up and she flushed herself dry.
Her museum sculpture face now a living room table top.
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I lied, and I burnt everything you ever left behind. [02 Oct 2005|04:43pm]
Impale yourself upon this bed of nails you little slut.
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I lied, and I burnt everything you ever left behind. [02 Oct 2005|04:42pm]
Impale yourself upon this bed of nails you little slut.
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I lied, and I burnt everything you ever left behind. [02 Oct 2005|04:41pm]
Impale yourself upon this bed of nails you little slut.
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I lied, and I burnt everything you ever left behind. [02 Oct 2005|04:37pm]
Impale yourself upon this bed of nails you little slut.
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I lied, and I burnt everything you ever left behind. [02 Oct 2005|04:34pm]
Impale yourself upon this bed of nails you little slut.
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I lied, and I burnt everything you ever left behind. [02 Oct 2005|04:31pm]
Impale yourself upon this bed of nails you little slut.
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Excuses. [02 Oct 2005|04:27pm]
And I watch as you undress
tragedy
but in retrospect you’ll clothe
in your regret.
So disgrace me with her wine stained lips.
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I lied, and I burnt everything you ever left behind. [02 Oct 2005|04:11pm]
Impale yourself upon this bed of nails you little slut.
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"after the movies" [14 Sep 2005|02:14am]
I remember how we kissed.
I kissed you.
One night as forever.

And I miss you.
Are you glad I'm finally gone?
I'm so sorry to hear that.
I'm so sorry.
I'm so sorry.

Have I hurt you?
I have hurt myself.
These sad songs won't change anything.
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[11 Sep 2005|12:33am]
Empty whiskey barrel, smoking shotgun barrel.
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[11 Sep 2005|12:29am]
Yes; These aren't words quickly scribbled on torn pages of a green covered fucking notebook. This doesn't end the way depressing books end. This doesn't end. This isn't a book. This is alive, and living. This isn't romance. This isn't a fucking diary. This will not flow phantasmagorically. This isn't passionate. Vanity? No. Empathy? Yeah, or close enough.
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[11 Sep 2005|12:27am]
They even had a fucking lobby. Lobby for what, the dead to sit and relax? I’m not even fucking alive, I’m dreaming. I don’t ever swear. Lobby for the people in my dreams to sit and relax, since curious brain waves get dreadfully tired and feel the need to sit. They’re only useless images that take up space in the background of dreams, cmon now why the fuck, pardon me, would they need a lobby…those couches..eh..I’m interrupted.)
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[11 Sep 2005|12:26am]
Walking into a hotel-like building never seemed so right. Hotels usually make me nauseous, and I vomit. This place is different. Such bright lights encompass the ceiling towering two stories over me. This is where I learn about man?
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[11 Sep 2005|12:25am]
If you’re lost this is only the beginning maybe you should turn around and find your way back out.

 

Say you walk into this room. It smells bitter, almost to the point where you want to walk back out. It is dark in here. There’s a bar on the far left corner complete with hundred bottles of wine, wine glasses and but no bartender. An old piano rests on the far back, opposite to the bar the pianist seems dead, or sleeping. It’s silent in the room. Unless it hasn’t hit you, it should right about now. You’re not impressed by this scene. Why are you here? The smell doesn’t bother you any more, you’re used to it by now. It’s been five minutes and you’re still standing at the door. Why don’t you come in…have a seat. Sorry we don’t have any stools, or beer. Please do come in, make yourself useful to our couch, don’t mind the brown color, and please don’t mind the pianist. He had it coming to him.

 

Isn’t this lovely? Now you’re sitting on the couch and there’s nothing you can do about it because I told you so. What? You want to find out what happened to the pianist? Yeah we’ll I’ll tell you, we shot him, we shot him in the back of the head. There’s a telephone line here, sometimes it rings but I don’t pick up. Hey, I’m talking to you, look at me when I talk to you, he’s dead, leave him alone already. Here have a glass of wine. In fact why don’t you have this bottle. Its from 1979, most of our bottles are from that year I don’t know why, I just like the taste. Bittersweet. Fuck, pay attention to me. I’m going to give you the keys to the room, a pistol and a few bullets. The pianist is your trash now. And lights out.

 
Wake up dear, wake up. Hello there stranger, welcome to your imagination. You’ve come a long way. Are you ready for this?

 

A break from reality, inside the imagination, realm of reality, your dreams.

 

So you’re thinking…that vicarious scene transgressed your ennui. Now, you are truly away, or sleeping. Your eyelids closed, and your eyes rolled anomalously until they reached the back of your head. Its okay though, now you are truly going to see things…Oh, about the pianist, you killed the fucking insurgent, in the most grotesque fashion yet. It’s okay though, he cajoled you into it, you are vulnerable by soft spoken words. No, it’s really alright sir, don’t castigate yourself. It was well contrived and done surreptitiously. Now that we’re clear, you’re going to transmute this back into the visions in your eyes, in other words you’ll wake up from this dream. I’ll see you again sir, real soon.

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Partially invisible. [10 Sep 2005|02:07am]
Hey, ignore the last 300 posts. Today, I become a ghost. And 2:16 am is where I finish reading the greatest book ever written, and finish watching the best movie I have ever decided to watch. So long, sweetie. Now go on and be the yellow bird that got away.
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